Feedback from the Tensegrity workshop held in Rimini, Italy, July, 2009:
¿Qué te Cuesta? Leadership and the Currency of Worth

Click here to listen to a live studio recording of the song played at the workshop, “The Sky in a Room” and some commentaries about it.

Newcomers' Feedback

I am 20 years old and first of all I want to thank you for this beautiful workshop (my first!).

I have read Castaneda's and his colleagues books and I practice Tensegrity from around 2 years but...the sensation created by this amazing event is really peaceful and really active. Through it, I have "touched" another side of me, another awareness... and now, if praticing Tensegrity I recall this awareness for only 1 minute, I feel a big happiness, as if I reunite to myself! I can say, in summary, that I have opened a link with my energetic body... It is all a discovery!

And how can I forget the words:"The workshop begins tomorrow morning!” This is the journey, and in this event I have understood that we have all been given tools to walk... if we want.

Here is the story I want to share with all of you:

My life was for years far away of being balanced, but things improved, step by step. One of the most important moments was the one when I realized that, instead of waiting for love to come to me, I should start letting love manifest through me.

Sometimes, I let others take advantage of me. I had to balance the giver and the receiver, within. I had moments when I felt guilt about spending too much money on me…
 
I changed a lot and I keep on changing. This is a never ending story…I realized that whatever change occurs within each of us, it touches the whole Universe.
 
I have Reiki, magical passes, recapitulation, crystals, so many blessings in my life. I am surrounded by my sweetheart, my relatives, my friends and I carry within, my ancestors, too. My teachers are everywhere; Life is my teacher...

Fluidity shows me that, whatever comes is more than welcome and…it has a meaning, sometimes a hidden one.
 
I have money, in my life, and I’m grateful for that, too…I have money for courses, for trips and hobbies and clothes and bio food and I have money to help others, too. I feel myself as being the leader of my life under the guidance of The Great Spirit.

I was deeply touched by the workshop and everything that happened there keeps on giving me new perspectives of dreaming my path. We were given so many precious gifts…The magical passes and the stories we were told keep on helping me. I saw myself in so many mirrors and that brought me a deeper understanding of who I am and tools for new approaches of my personal life. I found recapitulation and magical passes with a witness as being very profound and effective.
 
I was impressed by the impeccability of the instructors and I felt love and…there were moments when I laughed with my every cell and I felt joy.
 
We’re explorers and what a beauty lies within discovering each of us and all of us as being part of the Great Spirit. Blessings to The Great Spirit! Thank you!

General Feedback

What an amazing event! After the workshop I was and I am still in love with life and with everything around, nothing seem so serious or important as before. Everything seems to be possible with the new tools and the new energy from the workshop…  Practicing the Controllled Folly Form with some practitioners helped me to feel more connected and change my view about our common interactions I felt affection and understanding; I saw the same in their eyes...

Money for me now is part of life, although money is not the most important thing in life, it influences all the important parts of life. So money deserves a basic part of my attention and of my energy. I face the challenge to be financially free with serenity and without the predator’s tension, trusting the spirit, and collecting the money chunks in my life experience as we approach the energy chunks of the Cane Form: aware, in state of readiness and with elegance.

Thanks to: Nello and Stefania for the organization and for your common and fantastic money story. I enjoyed and laughed so much watching you playing the universal male and female role which seem common to every couple and to which I saw very clearly myself. I felt affection; and that between couples can be an inter-dependent and multi-shaped collaboration and mutual support in order to produce a common dreaming.

Thanks to: Giorgio for sharing with us, your amazing-magical story of success and the step by step actions, which lead you to live your dream… Listening to your live story I was recognizing myself and the influence of my mother. Thank you also for your body position gift as I name it ‘Beyond the Fear of Authority’ or ‘I am allowed’! … and that the four enemies of the warrior’s way are present on the path to financial freedom also, especially: Fear…

Thanks to: The Musicians and Gino Paoli with their magical vibrations which brought me to the magical mood, and the unique feeling, to laugh and cry from happiness simultaneously.

Thank you very much for sharing with us this workshop. 

When Reni Murez was talking about ¿Qué te cuesta to pay your bills on time? And ¿Qué te cuesta NOT to pay your bills on time?  I could certainly see the implications and there was no doubt that you pay for services or things you get and you’re honest in regards to money – anything else can create problems.  

When she mentioned ¿Qué te cuesta to be affectionate?   Something inside me was really tense and did not agree at all, this part of me didn’t think it was the same as dealing with money – I don’t want to be affectionate to certain people. But regarding the question ¿Qué te cuesta NOT to be affectionate? It could cost you years of resentment from the other! In this occasion I couldn’t agree more! As Reni said, nobody taught us to save energy and maybe money. Lots of work to be done.

The Cane Form gave me a sense of knowing my direction which is something I lack most of the time, and yet, it is essential if I want to become a Leader of my own life.

Controlled Folly Form, even though there was some resistance in some of the movements it became clearer the possibility of transforming the interactions into a “dance,” more fluid, not so stiff/serious. Exactly like it happens in dancing with every partner is different and, once the little disagreements that may appear are overcome, it becomes fun.

The Rolling Form on the floor was asking for us to let go of tensions and again seriousness.  With the “ha” sound I didn’t manage to laugh at all; I found it very odd since most of the time I don’t even need to know what people are laughing about, to see them is enough to make me laugh.  When one of the practitioners told me that she had been laughing about her situation and explained her situation, then I found it funny.  It is true that there is this feeling of sadness and lack of enthusiasm for everything inside me that I need to shake off, but couldn’t do it at the workshop – more work to be done!

Through this workshop, I have acknowledged my immaturity in the way I handle money.  I’ve always followed my mother. For her my father is the authority; she doesn’t have a say on money matters; she acts as totally worthless and she gets treated as such.  I can take steps towards being a leader in this regard.  I can collaborate with people and make deals with them, engage, express my views in a mature way. I need to pay more attention to details and all the circumstances that will affect my dealings/interactions.  Own and value my part in the interaction, be responsible for it, so there is nothing I regret.

There was a question during the workshop that showed me how lost I am: “What do you value most in life?”  As yet I don’t have an answer; I only have another question,  “Have I been following everybody else’s values?”  I think I have….

Giorgio’s story: We need “yes” moments and also “no” moments and the “no’s” are nothing to be afraid of. We just keep trying. We learn from experience and find different, new, fresh options/ideas.

Being a leader amongst other leaders, interacting with other leaders,….The sky is the limit as Reni Murez said. Surely we are born to be leaders of our own life, of our physical being and of our energetic being – this is magic! – thanks for the beautiful song that helped me see this!

In general the workshop had a very subtle, gentle effect on me.

The Stalking exercises showed me that money is not the only contribution one gives in a relationship, but ideas, energy to act on them and doing various daily chores also count a lot. It is very difficult for me to accept this as all my life I thought that I have to earn enough money to support the whole family and now I am in a situation where I do not earn enough even to support myself and I keep getting the impulses from my energy body that I have to wait, that I have to accept this for the time being. I thought that a warrior has to accept responsibility for her own life, which for me meant earning enough money. This workshop helped me believe deeper that it is the amount of energy one contributes that really counts and to see that my contributions are valuable.

The Magical Passes were, as always, a real balm to the tensions in my body. I still feel very fluid and relaxed. I have the feeling that the energy can now run freely through my body.

And the stories of the organisers gave me the courage to look for and follow my dreams; they filled me with the feeling that anything is possible and that mistakes and failures are part of the way; there is nothing wrong with making mistakes.

Giorgio lecture made me think of defeats. How important is to be able and prepared to accept them and learn from them. I “was” and still I am a little bit afraid of making mistakes and because of this fear I don’t act. A leader is a person who’ s prepared both to success and unsuccess and is humble. A leader is also someone who acts with affection and uses his heart, someone who is not selfish, but is aware of living among others wonderful human beings Thank you!

It was fascinating how through the guidance of Aerin Alexander our bodies learned the Cane Pass so fast and how it brought about a state of alertness, and also a kind of mirth.

Giorgio's lecture showed how important it is to take responsibility for oneself and not to confound "daydreaming" and dreaming.

The performance by Nello and Stefania was particularly interesting to me because it showed how to overcome problems in a partnership where both partners share a common dream but are confronted with serious difficulities. The same applies to my wife and myself - we have founded a small publishing company together with a friend, and we are working very hard to make it successful. This dream creates as well much joy as many problems, in particular because each of us has to do other jobs to earn sufficient money to live. It became evident how important it is to try to solve money-related problems jointly, and that leadership in this context cannot mean overpowering the others but instead to join forces.

 

I especially liked the part when Nello said that he’s going to make a depression when not being able to find work and then Stefania told him about all of his talents and that he should explore them. It’s about finding your talents and how you can use them in a positive way. I felt that it’s the same with money: to spend, save, investigate it in a positive way which is good for you and for others.

 

Thank you so much for the Rimini workshop! The Stalking exercises have given me confidence in myself again. Being a Leader for me, is to proceed with the decided plan and back it up with my full intent instead of letting doubts ruin everything. When it is time to consider if the plan needs to be re-assessed, then it will be done, of course, but only when the right time comes...for now I use my energy to fuel this new dream and not for the fears of failure.

The Magical Passes brought me back to my body, to feel it and to be able to move freely in it. I wondered how I had got stuck and “old” = rigid and I feel much better moving. Staying in Rimini has been much easier not to spend money in anything...yet coming back home, back to my regular surroundings, old patterns get stronger and it gets more difficult to stay aligned in my new mood and new integrity. Although these old behavioral patterns surge I become aware of them and can watch them and take a second before I decide to buy something.... The Magical Passes for the Centre of Decisions –opening the heart area –  was especially helpful for me! When I feel my assemblage point I become aware of my back and a lot of energy behind my Self.... This helps me to open up to new views and to be more fluid. INTENT! (I don’t need to be so much in my head!)

Giorgio’s lecture was held lightly: he stated all his patterns with a mood of “laughing about himself” which is new to me. He talked about his personal stories as about talking about someone else, yet as a serious examination of the whole process. I saw how my parents did their best in supporting me – they do what they can do. It’s wonderful how all is naturally and logically linked to the persons, their upbringing, their time: a web of energies ending up in the new branch: the son/ daughter how has all that’s necessary to evolve and –selecting which paternal “input” is useful, becoming whole.

It was such a surprise that 3 female instructors hold the workshop on money and leadership, in continuous, beautiful cooperation. There are so many aspects and experiences around and during these workshop days, and some of them are:
I think it is the first time, I experienced such a beautiful cooperation between the practitioners and instructors, for example in presenting the Magical Passes - it was so easy, light and at the same time, full of intensity and sobriety, and all of me was and is engaged. And from this, I felt a profound affection for everybody around me, for sharing interest and effort in this unfolding of our energetic perception.
 
By practicing the Cane Form, I feel I become silent, self-confident, and flexible in all directions. The Rolling Form on the floor came in the right moment, when I needed to deeply let go, and I could feel at this moment that I am surrounded by an immense sensation, were I am only a small part of. This was of great help to assimilate all we had experienced before, and I appreciated the information from the instructors, that we can bring the joy and silence of this form into an area we want to change. The partner form of Controlled Folly was such an intimate Pass and reminding me, that all our encounters are just a moment long and then we face again Infinity on our own, and then we meet again and let go again... If we don't meet in affection, our meeting makes no sense. All together, when home again, emerging again out of the intensity of the workshop into my daily life, I realised, how much my body had changed for better and how bodily and mentally strong I felt!
 
When listening to the lecture of Giorgio, I was touched by his honesty and deep investigation. At the beginning of listening to the family's history, I had to make a deliberate effort to listen, because something inside of me was resisting, and then, in the end, I felt, that he gave us so much by expressing his thanks and findings: that many people are contributing to his dream, actually and that the moments of defeat, the no-moments are manifestations of Infinity, which bring us back to our path with heart. I came to see this, too, in one of the witness conversations, and this view takes away so much pain, as it converts a pattern, so profoundly established in our common social consensus, that we have to deeply suffer, when we don't get, what we want.
In the witness conversation of Estefania and Nello, I was touched by their affection towards each other as a way to overcome obstacles. I feel and saw in Estefania, that we women definitely need to express ourselves, trust our perceptions and bring them into our interaction. This was a great inspiration, and opportunity to work on myself!
 
To be a leader of my own life, by having my energy body the whole time with me, in the area of money, in the interactions with others... what a guideline and inspiration. Again, as a woman, I at least feel so obliged to concentrate on others, to find solutions for their problems, and on this workshop, I experienced again, that everything starts with the concentration on my own energy. I feel it as a great relief to do this. When I am there, I perceive more of my surrounding and I feel so much affection. As Reni asked "Is what you then feel around you, different from what you feel you are?" No, it isn't. It is the same, only wider...

Thank you for this beautiful seminar, it was very special for me because during this period of time I have been interacting quite a bit with my family and some of the things that we were discussing were how to resolve economic matters pending from long ago.

The Cane Pass brings me a lot of sobriety and the sensation of self-confidence, as we tapped the earth at the end, my body felt how I can also make good decisions and I am included in them where as before I would let others take certain decisions for me.

As far as family matters, I have been able to confront aspects of inheritance that I was avoiding and I have also been able to put limits in order to take care of my energy voicing things in a more soberly manner. The example of Nello and Stefania has helped me where love can change the view of the other person. I realized that one of the characteristics of a leader is someone who has trust with those who are close to him and collaborate together; there is no need to battle in order to control everything; you can let go, like when we let go of the fist during the pass of Controlled Folly. During this moment you feel happiness and lightness, the contact with the other; respect and affection is what facilitates the sensation of your wings

Giorgio’s story made me feel how sometimes I make decisions from a rigid place in my mind, especially to make a point at something, that I am somebody special…In this way I don’t listen to Spirit. I realize now that decisions can be more fluid, fun, that you can try a path for the joy of it and that decisions are important but that they don’t have to be SO serious. I also felt with his story that when we let go of control of something there is a release of a lot of energy and it supports us later in order to find a new path. There was also a realization that when a path with heart includes others, it is not only MY path.

I became aware that many times I neglect relations with my parents, friends,... because I'm in a hurry to do some work which has to be accomplished. Moreover, I postpone my hobbies in order to do what I have in my mind to be done. My thought is: if I will not do that, it will affect my income. In addition, I became aware that I would like to earn some more money and I'm ashamed to have such wishes.

With a clear view, I saw that I should better advertise my work and get better offers (currently, I just select between offers I get). And there is nothing wrong to have a wish to earn more money.

What looked to me a quite big shift in my work (a decrease of overall working time and on top of that an assignment of a part of the working time to marketing) was furthermore clarified during the week after the workshop. What I have to do is a completion of projects. I started to feel every part of a project to be challenging and necessary. Up to now, only some parts of a project were interesting and worthy while the others were needless and annoying. I'm becoming aware that advertising (and some other areas) is a part of a project and not outside the project.

…An important scene, which I had worked with in Rimini, has already dissolved. A business partner was transfering me money in a very unreliable manner. I met him on Friday at a party. He told me he wanted to hand over to me his part of the business, because he is busy with many other things now. He made me a very profitable offer. I was completly stunned and enormously happy about it.

Today I had a business negotation with my gallery owner regarding my exhibition next year. She made me a surprising offer to exhibit together with my partner. That was precisely what she had always refused to do. This is a really lucky constellation.

And just now a friend called to offer me an interesting exhibition project for next year. I immediately accepted.

I feel like having grasped a new dimension in my life. The only thing that helps is laughing. The Rolling Form brings me to a point where sorrow and rage and desperation melt into one vibration, melt into merriness and a lovingly compassion towards me and others.

During the workshop, I saw that I inherited all of my parents (especially my mother's) insecurity about money – that I must always save money so that I will feel secure. Also my father's advices during my teenage life made me feel that dreams never are a realistic option, and as a result, I forgot about every dream I had and followed my father's work at his shop. At the same time I never fully accepted this, always intending to find a reason to complain and feel self-pity. Always presenting myself as someone so great that I don’t belong there, but, at the same time, as someone who is not doing anything new.
 
It was after Guya Baldo’s speech, however, that I saw clear that all these were happening because most of my energy is wasted on the presentation of myself.

So my new step is to accept where I am working now, stop feeling that I belong somewhere else and that it is necessery to feel bad the way I make my living. I can be a leader among leaders if I give up my self-importance and begin incorporating the views of others and myself in my life.

Additionally, the Rolling form showed to me that is sure possible to work and earn money with feelings of joy and relaxation. That is even possible to make a living following your dream without feeling insecure or terrified. So another step is let myself free to dream, rediscover my dreams, or find new ones, without guilt.

Before the workshop, when we were preparing our homework, it was surprising to me to see that the pattern of behavior and fears of my family is my pattern and fears too.

When we were doing the Magical Pass with the cane, based on our entire root system, there was a wonderful sense, as if the sinews were stretching beyond the physical body, below the earth’s surface. It was a very pleasing feeling. The same way I rely on my entire family line, retaining all that is working and halting all that is not.

Giorgio’s lecture helped me to see my unfulfilled dreams and projects for which there was not enough fluidity and persistence before. Also his lecture helped me to feel gratitude for my family line –  they who are dreaming forward with me.

During Stalking Exercise I discovered my main pattern from childhood, reinforced by the experience of my family line: if I show that I have anything, somebody will seize it, so it is easier for me to not do nor have anything, so that then there is nothing to seize. Because of this, I often have a debt, and very rare and reluctantly I accommodate another person with money.

Another manifestation of this pattern is that I think that the travels are too much luxury for me, no matter if traveling is one of my dreams. It is also connected with a feeling of guilt. My new steps in this direction is to agree with my relatives on the budget, to realize how my expenses correlate with expenses of other family members, to plan my expenses more carefully, including those that I want to devote to my parents.

In my interactions with other people, I often think that they don’t hear me and of my opinion no one is interested. New steps: to explain my position calmly and clearly, to recognize my errors, to allow myself to be "not perfect", to listen to other people more attentively.

The workshop went different than I expected; I expected someone to tell me clearly how to solve my problems with money and how to be a leader.

But it was unlikely so, in the sense that nobody told me how to do it, because it was me that must learn how to do it. The message I received from the seminar is that it is important to challenge and change ideas we have about money and ourselves after observing what works and doesn’t in life.

About money: I have a terrible relationship with it. In my life, I always reject and refuse to receive payments. Also, I clearly see that I lose energy as I lose money. Accidentally, before leaving the seminar, I realized that I have a bank debt of $2000.  I understood then that I don’t have control over my energy as I don’t have control over my money.

Another important aspect I saw is that both my father and grandfather were never a leader in their jobs. My father is a brilliant person, but never took the responsibility to be a leader, instead he always took commands from people less talented than himself, and the same did my grandfather. I do the same. I do my job well but I never take charge of it.

Like Giorgio, who gave the main seminar lecture, I too come from a peasant reality. And for my parents I had to “become someone”. At University I had a few problems. I did end getting a degree but with many difficulties. I immediately found a job with companies that called me for an interview, but I used to think that making money is “something wrong”. The same I thought about being a leader. My lineage deeply affected me about all this.

Now the moment to change has arrived. I want to do it starting with smaller things:

1. receiving payments fairly, for every single thing I do, for every energy of mine,  receiving the real value.  2) being attentive to my energy, in a way that I can accept jobs and earn greater money. 3) I will monitor my bank account and my energy. 4) I’ll be careful to claim what belongs to me and not always to lose money. 5) I will dream and intend any single action of my social life related to money in a winning way, so to overcome my old ideas and not to fall back in old schemes.

An important thing that came from Giorgio’s lecture was also to make a gesture towards my parents. They helped and supported me when I was in need. Thanks to them I got a degree and now it is important to me to change ideas about myself and become a leader, because this will feed back to them too.

What a great workshop that was! During the witness exercises I realized that during my interactions my shoulders are not open, but drooping towards my chest. Now I try to keep my shoulders straight and that gives me a feeling of self respect.

…With the lecture of Giorgio…I found a lot of similarities with me. Beside the name, I too quit  college and I was supported by my family till I was 27 and I wanted to be a rock and roll star without having talent. So Giorgio's lecture of actually not being supported anymore and earning a good living inspired me that I can also be a leader in my life.

…One last thing was the song. I had never listened to it before. When we were singing it, I felt silly and out of tune. When I got back home I found it in the you-tube, listened to it again and something hit me.The music, the lyrics in accordance with the Controlled Folly Magical Pass, described so beautiful, something that cannot be described with words. It brought tears in my eyes. Finally, one thing that didn't go well during the workshop was that I didn't find the courage to stand in front of you and say thank you for giving your best…

Thank you from my heart for an exquisite experience!

…The workshop is very affective in relation to my son who is 17. I realized I was about to do what Giorgio's mom was doing, and now I changed course. This is met with some tantrums but  who said it should be easy. ;-) A big thank you for that!

I noticed, before the seminar, that when I have lots of money I am less bothered what men think of me or want.  If a guy leaves me when I am rich, I am less bothered than if he leaves me when I am financially unstable. I don't identify with that fully but i can feel a tendency.

…Let the good times laugh and roll!

The most important thing, happened after the workshop, when I returned home. I felt a very strong increase of energy and at the same time I was in a condition of intense awareness; I perceived this as a clear movement of the assemblage point which happened also with the help of another practioner that was with me in great affection and energetic affinity. In the following days I experienced a very new position: I was “leader” in at least three interactions during the work time: my body position well centered, open heart, soft but clear view, my words were sure and fluent. From this position I noted that some colleagues looked at me with a certain surprise, because they had a different image of me. I obtained success and financings for my work projects.

 
As the waves of the Adriatic Sea in Rimini, the workshop fluctuated on many waves of fresh and bright energy!

Since I was very young, I was not happy to have my parents as parents. They were older than the parents of my friends, and, above all,  they were poor, like or more than the others: often I was ashamed for having them as parents.

This feeling remained with me until they died, more than twenty years ago. After their death, I respectfully remembered them, but something in me was not finished. Working through the stalking, and helped thoroughly by instructors, now I’m very in peace with them; I’m in peace with my memories about them. Now I can acknowledge how many beautiful skills I got from them, especially about money and leadership. And I’m free to dream a new relation with money, far from the fears I had in the past.

Working with the family tree before, and through Stalking exercise with my partners, I realize I combine the creativity side of my father, and the awareness that money is necessary for living from my mother; I realize now that they taught me to be sober, to be creative, and, of course, to take care about money and myself. They gave me the balance, the passion to live fully life, using money as what it really is: energy flowing in the universe, as the instructors said in the workshop.

Mapping the Body Pass, the rhythm of the Magical Passes with Cane, the affection of Controlled Folly, and the wonderful lectures, really moved my assemblage point position from the socialized place at the back, down to the earth, and then straight to the heart, and that helped to have this new view of my family lineage and of course of myself. I’m confident it will be helpful for the next generation of my lineage too!

Things I gathered from the workshop:
One is the idea of exchange…I believe I tend to give (time, money, love, attention, patience, care, …) but I forget to take any in return. So I forget to ask for money and I am surprised when I am given love in return or if someone finds the time to listen to me… But being a leader also means making the energy circulate. I cannot live if I only breathe in or breath out. I have to do both.

One other thing, is the idea that we do things (only) out of love. And how love is the most powerful push in our lives!